In one month and 9 days, Ben and I will have been married for a year! Sometimes, I still can't believe it! I love this man, and he really is my best friend. I'm so lucky to have him in my life.
Everyday, we are getting closer and closer. That's what happens when you start experiencing alot of major life changes together, and we have a lot going on right now! We are in the process of buying our first home, living life as first-time newlyweds in our late 30's, and (unknown to most) trying to have a baby!
No matter how stressful things can get, I know that Ben always has my back. He is constantly telling me, "We are in this together." I'm so glad, because I don't know what I'd do if he wasn't by my side supporting me and comforting me when it gets tough. And it DOES get tough at times.
Ben is a great husband. So, adjusting to married life isn't that hard. After several months of looking and finally finding the right home, the house thing is running fairly smoothly to this point (knock on wood). It's the baby thing that sometimes worries me. Can I actually do this? What if I can't?
We're on our 7th cycle of trying; and at age 38, I'm considered advanced maternal age (AMA). I'm not going so far as to say I'm infertile, but I suspect a few things based on symptoms and some family history that might make it really difficult. I'm going to let my doctor make that diagnosis before I get too concerned though. I have my annual appointment next week, and I cannot believe I'm actually saying that I can't wait to go. Believe me, I have never looked forward to any doctor's appointment, especially THAT kind of doctor's appointment. I've also already jumped the gun and scheduled an appointment with an Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) in June. I'd gladly cancel that appointment if we were lucky enough to conceive before then.
No matter what happens, I am counting my blessings! I am a lucky woman!
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