I went to the doctor.

I made my appointment during lunch and was worried I might be there forever. Much to my surprise though, I didn't have to wait long before going back. My doctor came and talked to me before doing my exam, and I told her that I had been trying to lose weight and was being unsuccessful, my periods were extremely painful, and I had yet to get pregnant. We had a nice discussion, and both of us were asking lots of questions. She ended our talk by saying, "It sounds like you're body is rebelling against you. I'm going to suggest you see a fertility specialist." I told her that I had already made an appointment, and she was happy to hear that.

She then ordered CD21 (or 7DPO) bloodwork for me. That appointment is tomorrow, and I am excited to begin finding some answers to my fertility issues.

Wish me luck!

I have a doctor's appointment.

Tomorrow is my annual check up, and I'm hoping to talk more about our options for trying to get pregnant. I am fully expecting my doctor to order some tests to see if either Ben or I have any fertility issues to be concerned about.

It's kind of an interesting time in our lives. We're in a 7th cycle of trying. While we haven't been trying that long, my age does concern me. I'm also concerned there may be other issues as well. I'm trying really hard not to borrow trouble where it doesn't exist, but I can't say that my fears don't sit in the back of my mind.

We had the house inspected.

Yesterday was our home inspection for the house we plan to buy. It went really well. There were no major issues, only a few minor ones. We have a list of about 6 minor things that we'd like for the sellers to fix, and we will deal with the rest. Now, if the appraisal comes in for the price we offered or more, we should be in business. I am patiently waiting to see how that unfolds. I guess we should start packing regardless, because we sure do have a lot of stuff to pack!

there were two.

In one month and 9 days, Ben and I will have been married for a year! Sometimes, I still can't believe it! I love this man, and he really is my best friend. I'm so lucky to have him in my life.

Everyday, we are getting closer and closer. That's what happens when you start experiencing alot of major life changes together, and we have a lot going on right now! We are in the process of buying our first home, living life as first-time newlyweds in our late 30's, and (unknown to most) trying to have a baby!

No matter how stressful things can get, I know that Ben always has my back. He is constantly telling me, "We are in this together." I'm so glad, because I don't know what I'd do if he wasn't by my side supporting me and comforting me when it gets tough. And it DOES get tough at times.

Ben is a great husband. So, adjusting to married life isn't that hard. After several months of looking and finally finding the right home, the house thing is running fairly smoothly to this point (knock on wood). It's the baby thing that sometimes worries me. Can I actually do this? What if I can't?

We're on our 7th cycle of trying; and at age 38, I'm considered advanced maternal age (AMA). I'm not going so far as to say I'm infertile, but I suspect a few things based on symptoms and some family history that might make it really difficult. I'm going to let my doctor make that diagnosis before I get too concerned though. I have my annual appointment next week, and I cannot believe I'm actually saying that I can't wait to go. Believe me, I have never looked forward to any doctor's appointment, especially THAT kind of doctor's appointment. I've also already jumped the gun and scheduled an appointment with an Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) in June. I'd gladly cancel that appointment if we were lucky enough to conceive before then.

No matter what happens, I am counting my blessings! I am a lucky woman!