It's been so long since I've updated, and I thought today would be a good day to do just that. I need to get this out.
First, let me catch you up.
My insulin test showed that my insulin was a little high at hour #2, but my doctor wasn't that concerned about it and didn't officially diagnose me with PCOS. Thank goodness!
Also, I had a laporascopy in July to diagnose endometriosis. Ben and I, along with my parents, got to the hospital early that morning. The wait for surgery was hard on Ben, and he was having alot of anxiety. I told him that if he got too overwhelmed to go home. I assured him that I was in great hands, and I didn't want him to worry about leaving me there. My parents and both of my sisters were there, and I knew that he loved me and was worried about me. He did end up having a full blown panic attack and did go home to wait for me there.
The surgery went well. My endo was only in stage 1, but my doctor discovered a couple of other issues while he was down there. I had a small benign polyp, a bit of scar tissue and a very narrow cervix (cervical stenosis). The doctor said it was a very severe case of cervical stenosis. So, he widened my cervix in addition to clearing out all of the endometriosis, scar tissue and the polyp. At my follow-up appointment post-surgery, he was very encouraging and recommended 3 more natural cycles before moving onto medicated cycles. He said we would then try Clomid, and if I wasn't pregnant in 3 medicated cycles, we would talk about more aggressive treatments. He didn't seem to think we'd even need to worry about that though.
He also ordered me to call when I got a positive ovulation predictor test during my next cycle. Ben and I were instructed to have sex the night I got the positive and come in the next day for more testing.
I had this test today, and the results were not that great. The nurse practitioner recommended intrauterine insemination (IUI). She said it wasn't impossible to get pregnant naturally, but this would give us much better chances. The cost would be $500 a cycle to do this. I'm just not sure I am ready to move onto this yet; and with Ben's anxiety issues, I don't want to add that kind of stress to him. In fact, maybe this isn't the best time to be trying to get pregnant anyway. Am I being selfish to even entertain the thought of having a child right now?
Obviously, Ben and I have a lot of talking and praying to do about this.
